whats terribly wrong with me? everyone's talking about aceing and striving for their promos and here I AM praying to just scrap thru to the 2nd yr. i feel incompetent and useless like a piece of crap. OR am i simply going in the wrong direction that my life should take? have i been wasting precious time pursuing sth that is really not for me? Is JC life really for me? man,, this qns are all cramped in my head and making my head spin! i wonder who out there can provide a helping hand..
this is the 2nd shot im trying at the 1st yr of JC. apparently its not doing alot better than last yr though there are minor improvements of cos. if there is totally none i would be better off in the trash can. if i dun manage to get to j2 by end of this yr,, it means that i had to take that ultimate route - POLY education. thinking about all this is driving me nuts..
maybe im really not cut out for all this JC thingy. and besides,, i was hoping to pursue some designing course aft jc ifi even manage to get to that stage. but its like ridiculous going to JC to end up going for designing courses as it is known that design courses in uni isnt prestigious compared to other arts sch or poly. however,, what i desperately need is a god damn portfolio which i obviously dont have and dunno how to work towards it..
well... i will leave this entry hanging on a loose thread... ...
